The Unfamiliar Way

It's only the second day being back home, I just got my stuff unpacked and mostly put away, and I've enjoyed seeing family again. I'm still not very far away from my Yap experience yet...but I feel too far away. This whole "re-entry" thing is a lot harder than it was for me last time. I seem to come up with different reasons at different times of the process, but right now I think I am realizing that the hardest part for me is the loss of community and sense of belonging. I am having to shift from "we" to "I" in my language and future planning. (It sounds like a break-up, huh?) I still haven't gone anywhere by myself in my car, and I don't look forward to it like I used to. I'm afraid of tackling my finances, and looking at anything "long-term" gives me a sick feeling in my stomach. And I just plain miss my Yap friends and my Yap life.

So here's to transsssition, Cheryl Doss. :)

The familiar, old way is not necessarily where God is. The new, unfamiliar way is--but God can guide me and make the dark uncertainty bright. The safety is not in the familiarity of the road, but in the Maker of the road, and the One who leads me. -- (Journal entry from 9/3/09 on Isaiah 42:16)